Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Hi Scotty,
Wishing you a Happy Easter up above.
I wish I could send you a solid chocolate rabbit like I bought you and your sisters as kids.

When I come on this page and find all the reflections left by your friends, it makes me feel so good to know you are still remembered and not forgotten.

I think of you every day, still missing you alot.
Sending you a big hug and lots of love.

To all police officers, stay safe.

Audret Stewart
Mother

March 26, 2005

Dear Scott,
I have heard and read so many stories about your life. I can tell that you loved being a police officer, just like my Josh. I'm sure the two of you have become good friends in heaven, sharing all your stories with each other and other fallen officers. You all are true heros.

Monica,
You have been a huge encouragement to me. Scott would be proud of you. Take care and know that you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love & prayers,
Kelly

Kelly Gillain
Josh's Kelly

March 25, 2005

Hey Stewie, I miss you man. As you know I quit the Department and moved to Arizona. Things changed so fast after you left. It never was the same, never will be. I remember working with you and always telling you and Konz that you guys were my favorite Officers. I still fell that way. I learned a lot working with you and I was a better officer and person after knowing you. It took a lot for me to even leave this message for you. But my friend, I will never forget you. Ever!!
Doc Rivers #875

Police Officer
Detroit Police

March 24, 2005

Hey Scott,
Never had a chance to work w/you, but saw in court.(Alot)! You have many admirers,and we all miss you. Hope you are doing well and getting prepared for Easter,you know what that means around here busier nights! Well,to wrap things up you and your family is in our prayers...See you later!

C.Connaire
Grosse Pointe Park Police/Fire

March 24, 2005

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury,pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.


O Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life. Amen

March 22, 2005

"GOODBYE"
Lyrics by: Lionel Richie

I wanted you for life
You and me
In the wind
I never thought there come a time
That our story would end
It's hard to understand
But I guess I'll have to try
It's not easy
To say goodbye.

For all the joy we shared
All that time we had to spend
Now if I had one wish
I'd want forever back again
To look into your eyes
And hold you when you cry
It's not easy
To say goodbye

I can remember all those great times we had
There were so many memories, some good some bad
Yes and through it all
Those memories will last
Forever

There's peace in where you are
May be all I need to know
And if I listen to my heart
I'll hear your laughter once more
And so I got to say
I'm just glad you came my way
It's not easy to say
Goodbye

Goodbye


It's really not Good-bye, but see you later. Our love ones never truly leave us. We just cannot see them anymore.

See ya later,
love ya,
Monica

March 22, 2005

I wrote your name on a piece of paper, but by accident I threw it away I wrote your name on my hand, but it washed away. I wrote your name in the sand, but the waves whispered it away. I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stay.

Love,
Me

March 19, 2005

Whats up, stewart fish, this is only the second time that i visit you here. As i read all those loving letters from friends, family and co-workers. I only come to think of how many people you have touch in your short time here on earth. You sure as hell taught me a few things, everytime i teach a class at the academy, i make sure to bring up your life story and how it came to a tragic end, and like we use to say in the Army, you could hear a "MOUSE PISS ON A COTTONBALL", that how quiet they get. Theres not a single moment that i don't think of my friend, man it really hurts. See you, hopefully not soon..LoL...but soon enough...Love Mike

Sgt Mike Lopez
Newark, nj

March 15, 2005

I cannot even comprehend that you have been gone this long. I look forward to finally seeing your name in Washington, what a long road it's been. I am forever grateful for the family that you've left us. They are more important than words can express. Know that every day since you've been gone we have remembered you and missed you. Watch over your boosters, they may have "scattered" but you are always in their hearts.

March 8, 2005

My fiancé, Dennis McElderry, was the first law enforcement casualty of 2003. Dennis was a Deputy Sheriff with the Davis County Sheriff's Office in southeast Iowa. Dennis died doing a job he loved, just as I'm sure Scott did. It saddens me to know that Dennis was not the first to die in the line of duty, nor will he and Scott be the last to die this way.

Having gone through the pain of losing Dennis I can truly understand and feel the sense of loss Officer Stewart's family, friends, and co-workers must be feeling. My heart goes out to you all. No one can truly understand the pain of our loss until they've walked in our shoes. Please know that my thoughts are with you today and always.

Please accept my condolences on behalf of the McElderry family and remember that Scott is part of huge law enforcement family. If you ever need anything any number of them will be there for you (as I've quickly found out!) From reading the many reflections posted here, I am certain Scott was well respected and well loved. You were blessed to have had him in your life, even for a short time.

Thank you Officer Stewart for a job well done and for helping to make this world a safer place for us all. Please say "hello" to my fiancé Dennis for me.

Wishing you brighter and better days,

Jocelyne :)

Jocelyne Brar (Winnipeg, MB Canada)
Fiancée of Deputy Sheriff Dennis Ray McElderry - EOW (01/03/03)

March 6, 2005

Monica, Hi, I'm one of Lt.Greg Medlin's sisters. I'm so sorry about your loss. I can't say that I know how you feel because I've never lost a fiancee. But losing a brother, that's bad enough. Greg was one of a kind!! As I read Scott reflection's, I'm sure he is in Heaven & I know Greg is too. So we have to be patient, we'll see them one day!!! Their watching over us.
Tracey Busby/Greg's sister

Tracey Busby/Lt.Greg Medlin's sister

March 5, 2005

Thinking of you as always, we miss you!

March 4, 2005

Say Scott

The time of concern is over. No longer am I asked how I am doing.
Never is the name of my partner mentioned to me. A curtain descends.
The moment has passed. A life slips from frequent recall. There are
exceptions….close and comforting friends, sensitive and loving
family.
For most, the drama is over. The spotlight is off. Applause is
silent.
But for me, the play will never end. The effects on me are timeless.
Say Scott to me.

On the stage of my life, he has been both lead and supporting actor.
Do not tiptoe around the greatest event of my life.
Love does not die.
His name is written on my life. The sound of his voice replays within
my mind. You feel he is dead. I feel he is of the dead and still
lives.
You say he was my partner, I say he is.
Say Scott to me and say Scott again.

It hurts to bury his memory in silence.
What he was in flesh has now turned to ash.
What he is in spirit, stirs within me always.
He is of my past, but he is part of my present. He is my hope
for the future.
You say not to remind me. How little you understand I cannot forget.
I would not if I could.
I forgive you, because you cannot know.
I strive to not judge you, for yesterday I was like you.

I do not ask you to walk this road. The ascent is steep and the
burden heavy.
I walk it not by choice. I would rather walk it with him in the
flesh.
I am what I have to be. What I have lost you cannot feel.
What I have gained you cannot see.
Say Scott, for he is alive in me.

He and I will meet again, though in many ways we have never parted.
He and his life play light songs on my mind, sunrises and sunsets on
my dreams.
He is real and he is shadow, He was and he is.

He is my partner and I love him as I always did.
Say Scott to me and say Scott again.

Scott,

I miss you. This poem was given to me by another fiancee. It just says everything I feel and think. I started a group to help other fiancee's/girlfriends deal with their pain. I figured there was a need for one because of some postings last month. It's spreading. I truly wish I would have thought of it almost 3 years ago. All of your ears must be ringing. :-)

I hope you and the guys are having fun sitting around talking about your "church ladies". :-)

I miss you, I love you, can't wait to see you.

Love
Monica

March 2, 2005

"His Journey's Just Begun"

Don't think of him as gone away--
his journey's just begun,
Life holds so many facets--
this earth is only one.

Just think of him as resting
from the sorrows and the tears
in a place of warmth and comfort
where there are no days and years.

Think how he must be wishing
that we could know today,
how nothing but our sadness
can really pass away.

And think of him as living
in the hearts of those he touched...
for nothing loved is ever lost--
and he was loved so much.

--E. Brenneman

Kelly Gillain
Special Someone to Deputy Sheriff Joshua E. Blyler EOW 5/2/04

February 28, 2005

Prayer for the Journey

Help me to be patient and kind in my relationships with others, even when they are thoughtless in their words and actions, for I know they do it without thinking.

Help me to remember your goodness to me so I can rise above this pain and see your image in each person and the good that is in him as one of your creations.

Help me to profit from the suffering that comes my way. Let me be better for it rather than bitter. And let me remember that each of us has to go through our own personal Good Friday before we can reach our Easter Sunday.

Most of all, help me to be such a person that anyone who comes within my influence will be no less kind, no less true, and no less noble for having been my fellow traveler in this journey toward eternal life.

February 28, 2005

Do not stand at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow,
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight of ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the moning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush of quiet
birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night

Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.

February 22, 2005

Daily Message For 2/20/2005

(If you are single, apply this to any relationship you have.) This is the message we have heard from the beginning: We should love one another. (1 John 3:11) There are four ways to love your spouse. But only one way will keep your marriage together. You can have affection for your spouse. You can consider your spouse your best friend. And your sex life can be so great that Dr. Ruth wants to hear all about it. In fact, it’s possible to have all three of these feelings for your spouse, which is great.

There’s only one problem. Feelings come and go, especially in a marriage. One day you and your spouse are best friends, and the next day you can’t stand each other. It happens. And marriages fall apart because couples base the whole thing on feelings.

This brings us to the fourth love, the one love that will keep your marriage together, as long as both of you take it to heart. It’s that love with the funny name agape love that is the love that desires the best for the other person. This is unselfish love that seeks to give rather than take. This is love that takes work. If loving your spouse unselfishly is a challenge for you, think about the way Jesus loves you. The Bible says that Jesus willingly made himself nothing in order to completely serve those He loved. And now He asks you to love your spouse in the same sacrificial way.

Try it and experience the best kind of love.

Scott,

Reading this today reminded me of the talks we would have about our love. We had the agape type. We always said we would love each other no matter what the other did. Nothing, would break us up.

I remember talking about other people and you telling me "Monica, 50 years from now who's going to be sitting next to me - you." God, I wish that statement could have came true. We never had the chance. We just started and everything had to end.

Love is a mighty powerful thing. It can outlast death, changes, and new loves. Love is the one thing you cannot get enough of. The more you have of it the more blessed you are.

I love you, the unselfish agape way, now and forever.

Monica

February 21, 2005

Monica,thanks so very much for not only for Gregs reflection,but for thinking about my undying love for him.I am a mom of two children and can not imagine what life would be like if i had to be here on this earth without them.I have read so many of your loving memories and thoughts of your Scott.I started reading your reflections and others on Scotts page,I had to stop after 2-3hrs.My heart aches for you,me,and so many others that are in our "shoes".I still do not understand why some people can't grasp that just because we had not taken our vows yet,Our love was so deep and by reading your heart to heart notes to Scott,You both had a Very deep love too.I couldn't find ODSO,so I will contact an agency that may help me get in touch.I could really use the support.I think we probably have alot in common.Emily is one of my favorites,I own two copies of the movie you were referencing to.I have to have hope and faith that it can happen because of their STRONG wills of letting their loved ones know ...That THEY are in Heaven and are waiting to see us again.! I will be in for the candle vigil with Greg's Mom and some other family members through the week.I hope to see you there. GOD BLESS YOU and SCOTT'S FAMILY. Shannon/girlfriend of Lt.Greg Medlin of DeSoto Co.Sheriff,Mississippi

shannon
girlfriend of greg medlin/mississippi

February 18, 2005

I come to this site from time to time and have always wanted to tell this officer's parents how very sorry I am for their loss. It is apparent that the loss isn't the only hurt that has fallen upon you, very unfortunate. I know that he is loved and missed by all who knew him; It's apparent from the in-mass messages left to prove it. But I don't think that any one of us--friend or lover--would ever want to trade places with these parents and find out what it would be like to lose our child. I know that everyone's life was affected by this. But all of our lives go on. Our dreams go on. Maybe different dreams and on a different course but still we press on and find a life again, a love again. For the parent of this man, a life lived in happiness and love cannot be found without him cannot, cannot be found in anyone else. So I say to the parents of this officer that I honor your sacrifice as well and am sorry that you lost your son.

I've read your posts Mrs. Stewart and would like to say to you, from one parent to another, that I'm sorry for the loss of your son. Thank you for raising him to be a man so honorable!

And to the neice of this fine officer...darling I am sure that your uncle would be very proud to be your valentines.

One parent to another

February 15, 2005

uncle Scotty

i miss you. Today will you be my Valentine?

love Jordan

February 14, 2005

Monica,
The love that you & Scott have will carry on forever. Happy Valentine's Day to you & Scott. God bless.

~Kelly~

Kelly Gillain
Josh's Girl

February 14, 2005

Happy Valentine's Day to you Scotty. Sending you a big hug,a piece of my heart went with you on Aug 11th.Your family thinks of you every day with lots of love.Please watch over your family and friends.
Sending a big HUG,
Mom
To all Officers, be careful and stay safe.Scotty has your back

Audrey Stewart
mother

February 14, 2005

1 corinthians 13:3-10

If I give away all I have, and if I deliver my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing.

4 Love is patient and kind; love is not jealous or boastful;

5 it is not arrogant or rude. Love does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; 6 it does not rejoice at wrong, but rejoices in the right.

7 Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. 8 Love never ends;

as for prophecies, they will pass away; as for tongues, they will cease; as for knowledge, it will pass away. 9 For our knowledge is imperfect and our prophecy is imperfect;

10 but when the perfect comes, the imperfect will pass away.

Scott,
Happy Valentine's Day

I love you,

Monica

February 14, 2005

Scott~

You definitely have a wonderful girl who still loves you and keeps your memory alive. I hope you are still watching over her. Maybe you could say hello to my fiancee for me! You are a true hero to all those who knew you, and it is amazing how your life (and tragic death) are still influencing people (including me!).

Monica~

I got your e-mail address and have sent you a message (maybe it went to a junk mail folder). I hope to hear from you soon!

Jessi

Jessi Garger
Cole Martin's fiancee

February 13, 2005

Andrea, that was one of the most beautiful poems. I'm sure your brother is so very proud of each and every one of his family members. And he wouldn't want you to continue suffering and grieving. You are right - you have been through enough. Your brother will never be forgotten. I, too, have lost siblings and the void is always there. Some days, all you do is cry and wonder why these things happen. The best thing you can do is think of the good things, think of him up in the beautiful heavenly skies looking down to everyone he left behind. He wouldn't want to see you crying and mourning. Love him, miss him, remember him in your prayers. Grieve him when you must. But don't feel guilty about moving on. We don't like to think about it, but death is a part of life, and we do need to keep going. He will forever be alive in your hearts, as my siblings are in mine. I stop by this memorial page every day to say hello to Scott, pay my respects to him, and thank him for his heroism. He is so lucky to have a family that loves him as much as you do. Remember, Scott and all of you are in our prayers every day. One day, you shall be reunited, and I'll be he will throw one heck of a party for you! Peace, Andrea. You will continue to be in our thoughts.

Michigan

February 11, 2005