Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Happy Birthday Scotty!

July 12, 2007

Happy 4th, Scotty

July 4, 2007

Happy 4th! Wish you were here with us.

July 4, 2007

I Love You! I would still say yes. Many changes coming up this year. I wish I had you to lean on - then again, if you were here I wouldn't be going through this.

Love you, Miss you, Can't wait to see you!

Honey Bunny

June 28, 2007

Our 10-year anniversary on this job passed a short time back. I still remember talking to you in the academy on a regular basis so long ago. Your strength in helping me during that first week of beat-down was greatly appreciated (I don't think that I ever actually thanked you for your help). Several of us may not have made it if we had not had your leadership to guide us! I still can't believe that you were the first one (and hopefully, the last) in our group to meet this awful fate. I look at your picture in my locker every day I work as a reminder of those of us who gave the supreme sacrifice, and those of us who might face the ultimate test at any given moment.

You were one of the great ones, in many, many ways. You sacrificed your entire adult life in service of your country in the U.S. Army, then transitioned into civilian life to do what you could to make a difference in the City of Detroit as a police officer.

Those of us who worked and sweated alongside you in the interest of the common good are all better for having had the priviledge to serve with you. You were a model from which all of us had to strive to meet.

We lost touch, by and large, after the police academy, but the friendship we sparked during that time never faded. I wish I'd been there with you on that fateful day 5 years ago. We would have taken that animal down together, or I would have been honored to fall beside you as your partner.

The world is a lesser place without you.

Respectfully,
One of your brothers in blue

P.O.

June 15, 2007

Miss you, Love you

Mom

June 5, 2007

I met up with your sister this weekend for the law ride in DC. While she may not know it, her inviting me made me feel like a part of the week more so than I had before. Your neice, brother in law, and mom were all there too, as you could see. I just wanted to say you are definitely not forgotten, and that is apparent thorugh the actions of those who loved you. God bless, Scott.

Katie Fisher

May 17, 2007

Scotty,
I was thinking of you today...Well, I do most days. Thanks for keeping an eye on me and I hope all is well. Sarah says "HI"!!!

Dep. Kurt Dabb
Pima County Sheriff's Dept. Tucson, AZ Friend

April 28, 2007

when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here.
Instead it just feels like it is impossible to fly
But with you I can spread my wings
to see me over everything that life may send me
When I am hoping it won't pass me by


i love you
jordan

jordan
niece

April 16, 2007

As soft winds sweep away the days
I look back on life through a haze.
Remember playgrounds, parks and friends,
In childlike gaze that never ends.
The laughter in a game of catch,
Shall memory ever attach...
To innocence in youthful eyes,
Catching the ball to your surprise.

I recall my first bike, first wreck,
Who picked me up, said, "What the heck?"
Convinced me to give one more try,
While, knees skinned, I forgot to cry.
Just the joy knowing he was there,
Making him proud my only care.
There was nothing I couldn't do,
My heart held fast that to be true.

Though pre-teen years were kind of rough,
I sure wasn't too big or tough.
You taught me to defend what's right
And never back down from a fight.
So I learned the hard way to stand,
Still, with each lump, I found your hand.
Drawing from you an inner strength,
And stubborn pride of equal length.

But there the line of fate was drawn,
As though I blinked and you were gone.
I found myself facing the sun,
Not man, not boy,an uncleless, one.
Eyes blinded by a void inside,
I could not live that you had died.
Alas finding it to be true,
I could do nothing without you.

Please, scotty, today just hear my call,
I'm sorry that I dropped the ball.
My life is wrecked, my knees are skinned,
My emotions undisciplined.
I can't get up although I try,
Please don't be upset if I cry.
Though I can't fight what I can't see,
Please, uncle scotty, say you're still proud of me.

jordan
niece

April 16, 2007

He talked to her of the great waste of years between then and now. A long time gone. And it was pointless, he said, to think how those years could have been put to better use, for he could hardly have put them to worse. There was no recovering them now.

You could grieve endlessly for the loss of time and for the damage done therein. For the dead, and for your own self.

But what the wisdom of the ages says is that we do well not to grieve on and on. And those old ones knew a thing or two and had some truth to tell, Inman said, for you can grieve your heart out and in the end you are still where you were. All your grief hasn't changed a thing.

What you have lost will not be returned to you. It will always be lost. You're left with only your scars to mark the void. All you can choose to do is go on or not. But if you go on, it's knowing you carry your scars with you.

Cold Mountain

I read this and thought about the past almost 5 years. I miss you more than anyone can imagine. I grieve for you and the life we had and the life we could have had, but that grief has become my scars - permanently marking me as I go on. Sink or Swim, right. I'm still swimming.

I'll see you when I stop,



When I get where I'm going
On the far side of the sky
The first thing that I'm gonna do
Is spread my wings and fly

I'm gonna land beside a lion
And run my fingers through his mane
Or I might find out what it's like
To ride a drop of rain


Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear
Yeah when I get where I'm going
Don't cry for me down here

I'm gonna walk with my love
And he'll match me step for step
And I'll tell him how I missed him
Every minute since he left
Then I'll hug his neck



So much pain and so much darkness
In this world we stumble through
All these questions I can't answer
So much work to do

But when I get where I'm going
And I see my maker's face
I'll stand forever in the light
Of his amazing grace

Yeah when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears

I will love and have no fear
When I get where I'm going
Yeah when I get where I'm going


Love you always,
Honey Bunny

April 13, 2007

Death leaves a heartache no one can heal.
Love leaves a memory no one can steal.

Happy Easter, Scotty.
Always in my heart.
Love,
Mom

Audrey Stewart

April 7, 2007

Not much to say,

I love you,
Thinking of you always,

See you soon,

I hope you found her up there - she always liked you, just like the rest of them. (They still say your name by accident - it's bittersweet, I like it, but it also hurts) I don't know what's worse watching the one you love die slowly or having him taken suddenly. Death is so hard, but it is the only sure thing in life.

I guess I found somthing to say! :-)

Love you,

March 27, 2007

Are you smiling????? I am sure you would approve, there is a happiness there that has been gone for a long time, it is nice to see it back. I am sure you had something to do with it!!!!!!

February 16, 2007

Happy Valentine's Day :-)

I love you,

Monica

February 14, 2007

Happy Anniversary

I will always remember this day

I love you,

Honey Bunny

February 1, 2007

My Hero

Too alarming now to talk about
take your pictures down and shake it out
truth or consequence say it aloud
use that evidence race it around

There goes my hero
watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
he's ordinary

Don't the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Kudos my hero leaving all the best
You know my hero the one thats on

January 18, 2007

Stew,

Thought about you alot today with flashbacks of both good times and bad. Continue to watch our backs.

P.S. you now have a veteran officer with you up there.

January 12, 2007

A very sad week. Two families mourning the loss of their very loved and close fathers. Be with your friend and send him some sign of comfort that you were there to greet his father. I hope you found my father-in-law. He is a great guy. He never knew you, but he respected you very much and would talk of you to others. So much pain this week makes me wonder how we get through it.

Love you,
Monica

January 12, 2007

Egg nog was drank in your memory, tears were shed, memories were brought up, and ornaments were hung with you in mind. Please watch over your family and friends in the upcoming year, you are their blue angel.

Miss you!

January 3, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

January 2, 2007

Happy New Year!!!

Hopefully, 2007 will be a great year for everyone. Continue to watch over us. Things are getting pretty bad at work. To many close calls coupled with the lack of equipment and manpower. This year was the first in a very long time they forced officers to ride the streets at midnight. Well, scout cars were shot, thankfully everyone made it home.

I was told platoon 1's roll call was different. The Lt. explained how the Canadian Mounted Police have a book of their fallen and they read from it all the time at roll call. To remember those who didn't make it home, to remind how dangerous our job is, and to drive home how we are all we have, so we should be united inspite of our differences. Then he talked about you. I like him.

Last night someone talked with me about you and how hard it must be. She talked about how families have love ones pass and how during their gatherings those loved ones are mentioned and talked about very easily. Then she said it must be different for you because you can have a new life and your new life your love one would not be brought up during those gatherings. She got me thinking. It is hard at times to gather with others and the conversation turns toward something that sparks a memory of you and then have the uneasy feeling about whether or not I should tell the story. Well, you know me, my stubborn self goes ahead and tells the story, if they don't like it they know where to plant.

You are such at major part of me. Why should I hide you, or erase you? That would be disrespectful. What would that say about me and our love? I loved you only until someone new came into my life? Nope. If I love someone I'm not ashamed to say it or show it and that love doesn't disappear because the person does. Remember our discussion about the degrees of love. I will always love you and you will always be a part of me.

I have to go, I have to help my princess with her princess hat!

Happy New Year,

I love you,
Monica

January 1, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR,Scotty
Please keep watch over the Detriot Officer.
Love and hugs,
Mom

December 31, 2006

Missed you like crazy over the Holidays. So many memories, some made me cry, some made me laugh.
Your Dad came in from Florida for the holidays.We saw so many people and ate way to much, will spend alot of time on the treadmill. He left this morning to go back to Florida to continue on with his boat trip.Says he is having a great time, but you know that I know you are with him.

Andrea took some great pictures of the girls, they look so cute. Haley was the first to say Andrea had taken enough. I think Jordan and Shelby could have gone on and on.
Dad brought the girls sea shell necklaces back from Florida, they each made a thank you note, I'm sure at Andrea's suggestion.They did a geat job.

It was a Christmas without the cold weather and snow, rather different.
Dad went out to see you while he was home. Andrea went out today and added some more things to your wreath,she said it was looking rather sad.

As you know I miss you, wish you could be with us.
Thinking of you and always in my heart.
Love and hugs
Mom

Audrey Stewart
mom

December 29, 2006

"Our loved ones are never truly gone they merely watch over us from above."

December 29, 2006