Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Sometimes there are days,
when you really need a friend,
someone who just listens,
and doesnt say a word.
Where that friend just hears everything you say,
and doesnt add one bit.
Where as you spout off,
you wonder , and ask,
are you listening to me?
And with a nod of this friend's head,
you know they heard every word.
And so you continue on ,
spouting, so to speak.
You are allowed to be animated,
foul in language, badmouth, and unsure.
All you are offered
is another glass of pop, or something to eat,
as you carry on your tirade.
This friend,
she doesnt judge,
doesnt cajole, or preach to you,
she is just there.
You always know you can count on her to be there for you ,
she never lets you down,
and likewise,
the favour is returned.
It just is,
always was,
and always will be.
Thank you for the soda, popcorn and the ear that never tired.
I still turn to you.

(from a mom who knows, you will never let your friend down,
that you are there for her)

love you jess

March 10, 2004

Jessica,
I am sorry that I have not written in a while. I saw your family at the funeral the other day. I knew you were watching down with Matt and Jennifer. I know you showed them how loved they were. I also know that you were watching over all of us. Thank you for helping keep me safe.

See ya.........

Brother in Blue

Anonymous

February 27, 2004

Jess,
On Friday the 20th you recieved a new niece. She is beautiful. Her name is Sydney Ann, she is 7lbs 7oz. In a way I think of you when I see her. She has these long toes and long fingers and when I see them I think about you and how you used to complain about how ugly your long toes were. That is okay though we can just tell her that she has her Aunt Jessica's toes. We will tell Sydney all about her aunt Jessica. I know you are watching over all three of you lovely nieces. They love you very much.

I love you and I think about you everyday.
I miss you very much.

Love your sis

February 23, 2004

Jessica, this day was spent once again saying good buy to a fallen sister and brother. I just want you to know it was an honor to work beside you. When I arrived on scene that day I wished it was me. Your smile will be forever in my heart. Until we meet again take care. I feel you presence every day. Thank you for saving my life as well of everyone else that went to the scene that evening

Anonymous

February 20, 2004

Well Jess what more can I say.... It just seems to keep happening over and over again. All of this just doesn't make sense- at least to us down here. You'll have to explain it to me once we meet again. My heart goes out to both officer's family and friends, just thinking about what they are going through right now makes my eyes well up. Again I am so grateful to have had a friend like you, I just know you are still laughing and singing along side me when our songs come on. I know the whole time heals... saying, but when does that start? I miss you Jess, everyday.

February 18, 2004

Nags,

Two more Officers from our area are joining you now. When will this stop? Their deaths really got me thinking about you more lately (I didn't think that was even possible). I miss you! Please continue watching over us. You are the angel on our shoulders.

Anonymous

February 18, 2004

Today your Dad and I went and spent some time with Matt Bowen’s family. How hard it is to try and comfort someone who just lost their child when you, yourself were in their same situation not that long ago. My heart goes out to them as well as to the department. They were both so young. And Jennifer reminds me so much of you, it only brings back the memories of the days we had to go through. Give us the strength to help and support these two families just like the support we received. Love and miss you so much.

Mom

PS – when you went skydiving, did you really do it only to give me a heart attack? Dad & I watch the video the other night. I think your primary goal was to make me worry about you everyday. Then at the end, when you landed on the ground you said, “Look Mom I’m safe”. I guess you are.

February 17, 2004

Jess-

Its been awhile, but today losing two more officers here in Michigan made me think of you. I can't imagine the pain the DPD is feeling, but I know you were at Heaven's gates to welcome them home. I know you are okay in Heaven, but I still wish I could talk to you again. I know you would be so angered by yesterdays senseless killilngs. Please continue to watch over us and act as our guardian angel while we continue to patrol daily. I miss you-

Jessica

February 17, 2004

JESS- 2/17/04

TODAY TWO MORE DETROIT POLICE OFFICERS HAVE JOINED YOU IN HEAVEN. I KNOW YOU AND OFFICER STEWART WILL BE THERE TO GREET THEM WITH GOD. MAY YOU STAY SAFE IN THE STREETS OF HEAVEN AND KEEP WATCHING DOWN ON EVERONE.

February 16, 2004

Jess-
I can finally make it out to Seattle, and while I am so excited to go visit Jill I just wish you could join me on my trip out- you know it would be all fun! "No Regrets"- remember? Anyhow, I just wish so badly that you were still here to make so many more memories with us all.

February 9, 2004

If tears could build a stairway,
And memories were a lane,
I would walk right up to Heaven
To bring you home again.
No farewell's were spoken,
No time for goodbye,
You were gone before I knew it,
And only God knows why.
My heart still aches in sadness,
And secret tears will flow,
What is meant to me to lose you,
No one will ever know.

Author Unknown

It's as if these words came right out of my heart. If only the tears and memories could really bring you back home again. There are so many of both, you would have been home along time ago.

Miss you everyday

February 8, 2004

It is so cool that everyone still writes to you. It shows how special you were to us all. I still think of you everyday, and the fun we had at Ferris. I wish I could get more update calls from you about your life and your job.

I know you are watching us all from above, because you never would have said good bye to anyone. I know you would still be watching us all daily, and that helps my sadness.

Love you-
Miss you-
And I can't wait to see you again in Heaven. I can't wait to hear your voice again.

Love- Jess

Jess

February 4, 2004

Hey Jess,
I am here in Seattle with Jill,
We are going to see Bette tonite! I know you will be there with us! Lets enjoy the show!
love you and miss you

February 3, 2004

You are not forgotten Jess. All of us from Ferris, in your acadamy class and the classes that surrounded your class, miss you and think of you often. Although I did not know you as well as I wish I had, I still feel pain. I cannot fathom the pain that your husband and your brother feel. Your memory makes us all better cops.

Anonymous

January 23, 2004

Hi Jess,

Its 500 days until I graduate. I know that you liked the fact that we were both women in career fields dominated by men. I can only hope I am making you proud.
Thinking of you. Love you. Miss you always.

Krissy

January 23, 2004

The poem above directly tells how I feel. Just to hear you say hi one more time would help me so much, but the poem made me smile knowing I am not the only one missing you.

January 19, 2004

Many days have come
And many have gone
Many things have been done
As we live on

And it amazes me
How everything relates to you
It amazes me
That the thoughts are never through

Things change so quickly
Life passes us by
Because we don't learn
To see what's right in front of our eyes

You always taught me much
But how could I ever know
That you would teach me the most
When it was time for you to go?

A new lesson slaps me in the face each day
And it all stems from that day you went away

Each day is a gift
This is true
But the wrapping was nicer
When each included you

Time seems so cold
As it just presses on
I must continue on this road
And work to see you again

Life is short
So why not be happy
I never forget you
But I can't let my thoughts become sappy

'Goodbye' is not known to me
'Farewell' is too cold
'Goodnight' is too tempting
So 'I love you' will do.



I think of you often.
Katie

January 18, 2004

Jess,

I come to your page often to read. There are so many talented people who love you and leave the most beautiful poems in you honor.

I hope you found my Scott up there and you both are enjoying yourselves in what ever you're doing.

Please continue to watch over those you love.

You were blessed with a wonderful family and great husband, who is still deeply in love with you.

Hugs,
Love
Monica
Fiancee Scott Stewart EOW 8-11-02 Detroit

January 15, 2004

Remember me,
as I remember you,
dont forget, the little things,
that meant nothing
to anyone but us.
Recall the days, the minutes,
the seconds,
keep them close
to your heart.
For I remember you.
As time goes by,
it seems as if
the visual fades a bit.
But then a certain song will play ,
or a certain word is said.
Sudden total recall,
fills my mind and soul,
I see you, I hear you , I feel you.
Then I know that you are not far gone.
To have you here, to really see, to really hear,
to smell, to feel, to touch once more,
the physical presence of you,
OHhhhhhhhhhhhh what I would give.
Remember me,
as I remember you ,
keep checking in on me.
I dont ever want to forget,
one little thing about you .
Its true the memory fades a bit with time
but the heart and soul will carry on.
all that we have ever known.
Remind me time to time ,
that its ok if I forget just how you sound,or smell, or look.
Remind me that the most important thing ,
is that I remember
the life he took.

mom ,,,,,,,,,, its time to write a book

January 8, 2004

Jess-

Sometimes I just want to be able to look at you and say hi. Just a simple hi with no pain and no anger. I want to see you and not the death you left behind, and I want to remember your voice when it seems to be drifting away. As time goes on I am losing memories of little things that used to mean nothing. All I know is I would give anything just to remember the sound of your voice. I want you to call to give that simple hi.

January 5, 2004

Oh Jess, At what point is the pain supposed to dull. See you again in DC 2004.

December 28, 2003

Jess.
Please give to those that cannot yet visit,
the strength to bear the pain.
Let them know you that you will be there,
to hold them by the hand.
Nudge them a bit, in your own little way,
encourage them , that all will be ok.
Understand the reluctance that they bear,
and teach them how to share,
their loss.
Call to them,
with your smiles,
draw them to you,
so they are not afraid.
You know just what you have to do,
Help them thru the miles
of their internal turmoil.
Walk with them, talk with them,
lead them to their peace,
not letting go , but being able, to visit you,
with a smile on their face.

I ask this of you for your "special friend"
She misses you so much

December 26, 2003

Merry Christmas Jess.
Thank you for the message to the man about the snow! It was perfect!
Love you and miss you,
Jillsmama

December 25, 2003

Merry Christmas Jess-



Jess

December 24, 2003

Merry Christmas to everyone and especially to Jessica and her family.

December 23, 2003