Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

I think about you often. I was up at FSU the other day and everytime I go there you are on my mind. Go Bulldogs!!! I still have that picture of us in my hat; you know the one...lol. You're on my mind everyday when I get ready for duty. I look in my hat and make sure every prayer is said that needs to be, and I thank God often for allowing me to know such an amazing person. When I'm FTO I tell the rookies about you and what took place the day you died. I use your story as a way of showing them to train as they would work. I want them to know that the training is the last thing that you counted on to save other lives. I just wish it had saved you Jess. I really wish it had.

Please stay close to me. The more you are on my mind, the safer I am. In a way you protect me. Please stay-

with love always-
Jess

jessi

December 26, 2006

Dear Jessica,

Merry Christmas! Dad and I went and put your tree out yesterday. Dad put lights on it this year so hopefully you can see it.

Love and miss you,
Mom

December 25, 2006

Missing you as always...Merry Christmas.

HPPD

December 25, 2006

Jess,

Just wanted to say Merry Christmas and I'm thinking of you.

Much love from me, and all of us Carney's,
Katie

December 25, 2006

Dear Jessica,

It has been some time since I have written but as usual, life here has been crazy. I had the girls Saturday night and Katelyn was crying because she misses you so much. I thought it might be good for her to write a reflection. She wasn’t sure what to say other than she misses you and of course, how pretty you looked. Once Katelyn was going to write something, Payton wanted to do one. I did the typing but she told me what to say. It’s funny, you never know what goes through the heads of young children. Katelyn wasn’t even 4 when you died but she remembers you so much. And Payton, well she was only 10 months old but she knows all about you. Rest assured, all of the girls will know about their Aunt Jessica.

Tonight we held a Project Blue Light Service. It was the first in the Metro Detroit area and was held in Hazel Park. You would have been so proud because I know I was. The Hazel Park Honor Guard presented the colors and the wreath. They did such a wonderful job. I think they miss you very much and would do anything to honor and remember you. The Chief spoke at the service along MI-COPS and survivors, including me. Can you believe that? Me. I was such a nervous wreak but everything worked out well. We didn’t have a lot of people in attendance other than some parishioners, family, friends and a few other survivors. This was our first year so hopefully, next year we will pack the church.

Remember you are always with us and we love and miss you very much.

Mom

December 20, 2006

I was just looking thru your photos on the Officer Down Survivors Yahoo Group. I remember the day. I've been to Hazel Park many times and used to work at a business there many moons ago. I don't think, as we reflect, that we ever get over senseless tragedies, we just learn to cope. God Bless.

D. Paul, Special Agent
FBI

December 19, 2006

dear Aunt Jessica
I miss you very very very very very very very very
very very much. You look very very very very nice in your
dress from the wedding.
love katelyn.

December 17, 2006

Dear Aunt Jessica,

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Miss you.

Love,
Payton & Sydney

December 17, 2006

Jessica,
We never had the honor of meeting you. However, within a couple of days of your sacrifice we got the news of what had happened. We didn't know any member of your family or friends and coworkers, but we said a prayer for all. A few months back we had the honor of meeting your mother. We were so moved by her love and understanding. We felt an incredible amount of support from her. You truly must be proud of her. This time of year is difficult for all. Thank you for protecting us and keep your angel wings around your family, friends and coworkers. With respect, Dad & Stepmom of fallen officer, Chattanooga Police Department, Julie Jacks eow 05.06.02

Frank & Charlene

December 14, 2006

Missing you so much tonight.

November 14, 2006

Jessica,
Thank you for watching over your brothers and sisters in Hazel Park. You helped them come home safely to their families. You are missed.

November 3, 2006

I would just like to write and say that you or your service will never be forgotten. i am from Hazel Park and i have heard countless stories about your smile and spirit and I just wanted to say thank you for trying to make the world a better and safer place.

November 3, 2006

I seen this on another site and I thought how true this is.

In the hallways of my memories and in the canyons of my heart, I will always remember you

In the soft snows of winter and the hot spells of summer, I will always remember you

In the dawn of spring and the dawn of fall, I will always remember you

On birthdays, anniversaries and ordinary days, I will always remember you

When I am lonely and tempted to be bitter, I will always remember you

When I am discouraged and confused, I will always remember you

When good news is too good to keep to myself, I will always remember you

I will remember the gifts you gave; I will remember the gift of love, I will always remember you

I will always Remember You.

October 16, 2006

Jessica,

When I worked for the Michigan Police Corps your picture hung on the wall just down the hall from my office and I can't remember a time not looking at it as I passed by. Two summers ago I went to DC and found your name on the Police Memorial and the sketching from the wall hangs in my locker at work. You will always be remembered.

Ofc. Mark Danielson

October 14, 2006

I can hardly believe that I am going to be 30 very soon. It still comforts me to know that I am the youngest out of the group. I knew some day I would be able to feel good about that.
I wish you were here Jess-- Come celebrate with me in Vegas Baby!
I love you and miss you always.

October 12, 2006

I just got back from the Parents Retreat. While I don't go every year, I think it is good to go at least every other year.

October 10, 2006

Everything that there is to say seems to have been said. You are still sorely missed and even though life seems to continue on at an amazing pace, it'll never be the same. Things continue to happen that I wish you were here to share, I hope the view of the fall colors is as beautiful up there as it is down here. Missing you always...

October 8, 2006

Just thinking of you.

Katie

September 27, 2006

Thinking of you this fine fall day. I know how you loved the antics of Halloween with your family.
You are always on my mind, and in my heart

September 22, 2006

It has been over 4 years now and not a day passes I don't think of you and the tragic event. I have yet to visit the location but have heard your family have made a memorial honoring you. My last post I mentioned I kept your photo to remind me of the lost and how quick things can change. I have now made it permanent by putting it to ink on my arm. It's a black badge band with your i.d. #.

Keep a watchful eye over all of us as we go out each day to help keep the streets safe for others and their families.

JCSD, FSU alumni

August 20, 2006

When someone you love becomes a memory, the memory becomes a treasure.

August 15, 2006

Always remembered for your dedicated service and bravery!

Cpl/1 Steven Rizzo
Delaware State Police

August 11, 2006

Jessica,

Four years ago today we buried you. It is so hard to believe that it has been that long. It seems like only yesterday that it happened. Bits and pieces of the days after you were killed come back to me. Sometimes I'm glad because so much is still a blur and then other times, I don't want to remember. One thing I will always remember is the pain and sorrow in my heart and in those that loved you. That will never go away.

August 3, 2006

Hi Jess. Another year gone and while so much has changed, it seems a lot has stayed the same. Jill & I were able to come to Michigan for the 28th - we were both really happy about that. It was nice to see everyone again.

This may be the most disappointing post I've ever written. I wanted to write to you, but no real words seem to be forming. I think I've sort of taken a step back from it all. I see what everyone else is feeling... and I know I cannot imagine what is really going on inside of them. I see what everyone else is feeling, but I no longer have any idea of what I'm feeling. I think I've put a bit of distance between myself and... I don't know what exactly. You? My feelings? Life is a lot simpler without feelings isn't it? But what is life without feelings...

Yes, I'm just rambling now. I'm trying to figure my life out and it doesn't always make sense. And I still just don't have the right words for this, for you. Maybe I'll try again some other time.

Katie

July 31, 2006

Dear Jessica,

This is a couple of days late but I couldn’t bring myself to go to your site on the 28th. I guess I figure if I didn’t go out here and write anything, the day would be easier. And on Saturday, I was too exhausted to even think or move.

We had your 4-year Memorial and a get together at the FOP on Friday. It was a long day but that’s the way I like it to be. If I keep myself busy, I don’t have time to think too much. It’s during the quiet times that I think about you the most and what has happened over these past years. This year, I started thinking about the friendships lost, the ones rekindled and the new ones created. Some of the new ones created are with parents and family members that suffered the same type of tragedy that we have. I am thankful for them because they understand what the day means and how you feel. Others are with members of the department. They feel the same lose that we do. You were family to them and they have opened their arms and welcomed us in.

Dad went to Jarvis on Friday and put a new badge in the sidewalk. We thought some kids stole it but come to find out it was from the winter weather. The Chief told us that someone from the neighborhood brought the old one up to the station, which was really nice of him or her.

There was a good turn out at the cemetery; family, friends, co-workers and their families. Jill came home along with Katie, Kelly and Kathy. Stephanie and Sharrie were there as well. I know it was hard for Jill but it was so nice to see her. I’m glad she came. As usual, Father Bob did a wonderful job and I know you were proud of the Honor Guard. They always want to do their best when it comes to you and they succeed. Emmi did a great job on the bagpipes. Back at the hall, Sue presented a bronze plaque that the department had made. It is wonderful and it means so much to us because it comes from your co-workers out of love and respect. I put together a presentation of pictures of you growing up. It was fun to do. Looking at the pictures of you as a little girl, showing how you grew into such a beautiful woman. I don’t know if you would have liked some of the ones I used but it showed a side of you that a lot of people didn’t get the chance to see and I think that’s important. Payton put on her Fraser uniform at the hall. She went around putting handcuffs on everyone and arresting them. She was too cute. Heaven forbid she goes up to be a cop.

Well, this is getting rather long. You just need to know that you are loved and missed by so many. You will never be forgotten.

Love and miss you so much,
Mom

July 30, 2006