Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

We miss you.

Anonymous

You are in my thoughts & prayers. No one can ever truely know what it feels like to lose someone so suddenly unless you have been there. I, like you, have been there too. On October 3, 2001, my Calvin was hit by a tractor trailer while on a traffic stop & was killed. I know what it feels like to wonder if the pain ever goes away, if the hurt lessens, if the tears stop coming so often & if you ever feel like you can be happy again. Every holiday that goes by you think about what it would have been like with you loved one there with you. For me, time has helped with some of these questions but I still have about 1 week out of every month that I am really down. Calvin & I were separated when he was killed but my love for him wasn't any less. We actually talked less than 24 hrs before he was killed about getting back together. Even though I always was close to his family, they haven't called me even once since he was killed. I've called & visited them several times but I have basically had to grieve with just the few friends I have around me here & my family (who lives 8 hours away from me). I not only spent over 10 years of my life with Calvin, I am also one of his dispatchers.

I just wanted to share my tragedy with you so that you know there isn't any one way to deal with a death of a husband. There are times that you experience hurt, anger, loneliness, and any other emotion you can think of. Just go with the feeling at the time and cry when you feel like crying. It's been a little over 6 months since Calvin was killed & I'm just now getting to the point that I can look at his pictures and smile most of the time instead of crying. When I wonder why God took him from us so early, I try to not question God's works but be so thankful for the wonderful times I shared with Calvin. It's just so hard because we didn't get the chance to try to work things out again. So I'm left with never being able to close that part of the book of life...only to know that the last thing I told him was "I still love you". Be proud of your husband and the life you shared with him and your children. If you haven't heard the song "If You Could See Me Now", try to find it & listen to it. It is by a Christian group called Truth. It helps me when I'm having a very difficult day to hear it. Hope you can go to the Police Memorial in D.C. this year. I am going to attend even though his mother is the significant survivor. May God Bless You & your family.
Denise L. Taylor
Survivor

TC Denise L. Taylor
NC Highway patrol

You were the bravest man I ever knew, so strong, so dedicated and so true. I will miss you forever.

Anonymous

I'm afraid people will forget a man they shouldn't.

I'm sorry now. For the things that were not said. For the things that were not shared, in laughter, and in tears.

I couldn't have imagined this, not in a million years.

How could life be so unfair.

-B

Anonymous

Brooke- I am a good friend of officer joey cushman,
killed on june 7,2001. He was a brother to me, he
called me little sis. I miss him terribly, I will never know
the great pain you are feeling, but i am here to help you
if you need it, if you just want to talk. But I don't know if I
will do much good only being 15! But I want you to know
that your husband is with God now, and he's smiling. If
you need a laugh or a shoulder to cry on, just write me.
Love to you.

Anne

You completed me. I was lost before I found you and had never felt peace until I did. Those who know me know this even without me speaking of it. I love you Alister.

Anonymous

TO MY BROTHER AL

IT'S STILL HAD TO BELIEVE YOU'RE GONE
THAT I'LL NEVER HEAR YOUR VOICE
THAT I'LL NEVER SEE YOU SMILE
I WISH I HAD BE GIVING A CHOICE
WISHING YOU WHERE ON THE OTHER END
EVERYTIME I CALLED
I COULD BE BITTER
AND CONTINUE TO ASK WHY
STAYING ANGRY AT THE WORLD
BECAUSE YOU HAD DIED
BUT I WAS LUCKY TO HAVE A BROTHER LIKE YOU
TO HAVE THE LOVE WE SHARED
I'M HAPPY FOR THE MEMORIES
KNOWING HOW MUCH YOU CARED
IN THE HEARTS OF MANY
YOU'LL ALWAYS LIVE ON
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE HERE
I KNOW YOUR'RE STILL HERE
SO I WILL NOT CRY
YOU WILL ALWAYS LIVE IN MY HEART
SO I GUESS I WILL NOT SAY GOODBYE

EILEEN

I would give up my ability to walk, to talk , to see...to bring you back to Brooke........... even for just 1 more day.

Me again

Anonymous

AL,THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE BEST DAYS OF MY LIFE.

Anonymous

Brooke,
It deeply saddens me to hear of your loss. We are still in the healing process in our department after the loss of a great officer and a wonderful person. Joey and Alister are walking heavens beat together now, watching over us. They will never be forgotten and we will be reunited with them one day. May God give you strength and peace and lead you through.

Arlington PD dispatch

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AL.....
I WISH ALL THE TEARS CRIED, COULD BE TEARS OF JOY.
YOU ARE SO SADLY MISSED.

ME TOO

Anonymous

HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY AL !!!!!!

Anonymous

Every second of everyday you're here, I see you in my reflection, we look exactly the same. Its a curse and a blessing, a curse cause your not here and a blessing because I realize I come from you. I miss you so much I can never explain to you or anyone. You are my hero and mentor and always will be, the same for Cliff and Derek. I promise to live up to your amazing accomplishments and make the other boys as good a men as you would. I havent slept since you left us, not a second goes by where your not on my mind. I talk to you each night, tell you all the things I never could and all the crazy things that are going on now. I would do anything to have you back, to let my brothers learn from you instead of me, but I'll do my best as you always taught me. I miss and love you so much Dad ('S Rioghal Mo Dhream)

Ian McGregor
Eldest Son

It has been a month now, and the pain is still as strong. I see your face at night while sleeping. I pray for Brooke and the little ones while awake. The older boys have turned into fine young men. Your strengths show through them. We miss you. We will always remember you.
One moment I am sad, the next very, very angry.
It wasn't suppose to end like this.
Good bye Al........

A family member

Anonymous

Sorry to see you leave so soon. You have always been a friend to me long before I became a police officer. You had taught me many things that have benefited me over the years. You were an inspiration to me, our department and most of all your family. Your were a good friend, Outstanding Police Officer, and Super Father. You were my friend and I am also proud to say that you were my Captain. A Salute to you!!!!!!!! Miss ya ROSE

Patrolman Michael J. Rose
East Providence Police Department

Recently, I lost one of my officers when he was shot to death. It seems so recent, but yet so long ago. I decided to check his site to visit him again and was shocked to see the number of officers that had made the ultimate sacrifices since Christmas Day. As law enforcement professionals, we sometimes take it for granted that it will not happen to us or anyone that we know and love. Then comes that tragic day, when one of our own is gone forever. On duty or off, violently or accidentally, the loss is still very much real. To ALL of the family and friends, I extend my deepest sympathy and pray that with time you can remember all of those good times. May GOD bless you all.

Captain W. Alex Setzer
New Bern Police Department

To Captain McGregors family and fellow officers, I am so sorry for your loss. May he rest in peace. GOD bless all of you, and keep him in your hearts and minds.

Deputy Wayne Costa
Lake County Sheriffs Office, Florida

To All My Fellow Officers,
This time is one of the saddest days in my life and the lives of the men and women of our Department. Al was the best and brightest. He was the most respected member of our Department. He was my friend. I want to thank everyone who responded and showed us support in this time of our greatest loss. Take time to greet your officers. Take time to support them and give them a pat on the back. Take time to embrace your family and friends. Take time. Stay safe. - Capt. Walter H. Barlow, Jr.

Captain Walter Barlow
East Providence Police Department

The legacy of Capt. McGregor was all around us yesterday at his wake: the moving brotherhood of police officers--- current and retired--- from all over the state; three beautiful nearly-grown sons articulate, poised, and the image of their Dad; a gracious and composed widow and police officer; a courageous Mom, attached to oxygen but still rising to shake every hand; the music of his ancestry piped by a police family member; the hundreds who he had touched in some way reverent and quiet in long lines. This was a man who truly knew how to live!

Anonymous

We are so sorry to hear of the tragedy involving Captain McGregor. Our thoughts and prayers are with the friends and family of Captain McGregor in this very difficult time. We are all very aware of the dangers associated with SWAT training and our hearts go out to the other officer that was involved also.

Colorado Springs PD Tactical Enforcement Unit

Sgt. Dan Lofgren
Colorado Springs Police Department

To a well respected, honest, joyful person. You will be greatly missed. May God protect your children and wife.. Rest in peace Al..

Anonymous

Al,
As a friend and former co-worker, then on the other side of Public Service, you have always remained a professional. May you rest in peace...

And may God protect your Wife and Children

God Bless

Lieutenant
East Providence Fire Dept.

AS A DEPT. WHO LOST ONE OF OUR OWN IN A RECENT ACCIDENT, OUR CONDOLENCES, GO OUT TO THE FAMILY AND FRIENDS OF CAPT. MCGREGOR. MAY HE REST IN PEACE. THANK YOU FOR YOUR SERVICE TO THE PUBLIC. YOU WILL BE IN OUR THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS.

DISPATCHER COUTO
PLAINVILLE POLICE DEPT. PLAINVILLE MA.

He will be missed.

Anonymous

God Bless...my thoughts and prayers are with Captain McGregor's family.

Lt. Bill Ganley
Salem NH Police