Jessamine County Sheriff's Department, Kentucky
End of Watch Tuesday, November 13, 2001
Reflections for Deputy Sheriff Billy Ray Walls, III
HEY BILLY.
I STILL THINK OF YOU EVERYDAY. THE SADNESS WILL NEVER GO AWAY. WISH YOU WERE HERE. MAYBE YOU COULD HAVE BEEN THE NEW DETECTIVE FOR S.O. I KNOW YOU WOULD HAVE DONE A GREAT JOB AT IT..
I HEARD THAT PRISSY WAS SELLING THE HOUSE. CAN'T SAY THAT I BLAME HER....I DON'T KNOW HOW SHE'S BEEN SO STRONG,
BUT I HAVE TO COMPLIMENT HER FOR HER INCREDIBLE STRENGTH.
I'VE BEEN GOING THROUGH MY OWN DRAMA, BUT I'M HOPING THINGS WILL START TO LOOK BETTER FOR ME. PLEASE PUT IN A GOOD WORD.
I MAY NOT WRITE AS MUCH AS I USE TO , BUT YOU'LL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN. EVERY DAY, ESPECIALLY HERE @ THE EMERGENCY SERVICES BLDG. , SOMETHING REMINDS ME OF YOU, OR MAKES ME HAVE A MEMORY OF SOMETHING YOU ONCE SAID OR DID. MEMORIES WILL NEVER BE GONE...
I KNOW YOU'RE RESTING IN PEACE, AND LOOKING DOWN ON ALL OF US THAT YOU KNEW, I'LL SEE YOU WHEN IT'S MY TIME.
GOD BLESS YOU AND ALL..........
Billy, it's been four months today. In some ways it seems like forever, in some it seems like yesterday. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and that terrible day. I think of Prissy and Kaley and how their lives have been torn apart. Words can not describe how much she misses you, and that is what I can see on the surface. Don't think I could have handled it with as much grace and dignity as her. But somehow, sometimes I get this feeling, this echo in my head that tells me that life goes on, and when I stop to think about it, I feel it's you talking to me. Maybe someday we will move beyond this, but it has only been four months.
Officer David K. Day
Lexington PD
Billy,
David and I went out last weekend for the first time since November 13th. The last time we had a night out it was with you and Prissy, 10 short days before you were gone. We are both so glad we had that last night out with you, especially after all the trouble we had planning it. I don't know if it will ever feel right again. We always called to see if you and Prissy wanted to go with us. We miss you Billy. Probably always will.
March 13th
Officer Tracy Day
FCPS Dept. of Law Enforcement
March 13, 2002
Dear Billy,
Four months since you left us. Some of the numbness is apparently beginning to subside, because it seems that the events of November 13th are now more painful and shocking than ever before. Your absence leaves a searing pain and a gaping hole in so many lives. Your being snatched away so cruelly has given many of us new perspectives on our own lives, and a much greater appreciation for those we hold dear. Since November 13th, we are probably kinder to each other; we probably have more compassion for each other; and, without a doubt, our priorities have changed. We know that God always knows what He's doing, and there's no question that much good has already and will continue to come from His calling you Home. But, as mere mortals with such limited understanding, we're having a very difficult time dealing with all the pain and unanswered questions. We know you see all of us who struggle and cry out for answers and peace of mind, and we'd appreciate any help you and God could give us until we can join you and learn firsthand from the Teacher.
The Easter Season . . . . . Heaven is surely at its most glorious right now!! The flowers must be breathtaking, the music magnificent, and the angels blindingly bright and beautiful. What sights you must see! What sounds you must hear! What wonderful things you must learn every minute! We're truly happy for you--even envious!--yet we sit down here and ache and cry. Such is the human condition. We know, in our hearts, that YOU are the fortunate one; it's just not easy being left behind to carry on.
These four months have sped by, and they've passed excruciatingly slowly. They've been painful and difficult, and we've all lost our equilibrium somewhat. We've been devastated, angry, hurt, confused, sleepless, shaky, bewildered, distracted, unnerved, and sad, sad, sad. It's probably safe to say that we will experience these various emotions for a long time to come; amazing, really, the impact one life has upon another. It's important to us that you know how much you're missed, that you're certain you'll never be forgotten, and how much we're looking forward to seeing you again. It was a special privilege to know you, Billy. Happy, Happy Easter.
With love and appreciation,
Susan & Louis
Susan & Louis Prater
Friends
4 months tomorrow, Billy, since life as we knew it changed. Things will never be the same but just wanted you to know you are alive and well in our memories.
Hey Billy,
I was thinking about you the other day like I do almost everyday.Scott and I were talking about that time that I moved Jason Hortons car and you got on the radio and acted like you had it stopped at the South Junction and you wanted me to get a Code 11 to meet you there with it and Jason freaked out.Then when I changed his license to Suspended and had him all scared and you ended up telling him that it was fake,you just had that grin whenever you told him.It will be 4 months tomorrow.I still can't accept that it actually happened to you and happened in Jessamine Co where you would think you are invincible and thought it couldnt happen here.I saw Prissy the other day when I seen Mickey in the hospital thank God that he is doing fine and actually gets to come back Friday.It hasnt been the same here,if you know what I mean haha.I was just thinking about 4 months ago,thinking at 439 that morning you were calling 10-10 to go to the gym.Prissy is looking good considering what happened.She is in good spirit.Sammy got the National Deputy Award for doing his job like every other Peace Officer.He looks good and I think he is definitely ready to come back to the street.But I thought I would say Hey since I havent wrote anything its kinda hard to.I saw the other day I went and got a warrant from the office and it had been returned by you,and it just killed me seeing your signature showing only a month before,if we only knew what we know now at that time.But God wanted someone good up there with him and he definitely got a great angel to protect the other Police Officers out on the street and we lost a great Deputy.Well Billy I will talk at ya in the next couple of weeks.Be careful
Kato
Jessamine Co 911
Billy
It's the 10th of March in just 3 more day it will be 4 long heart wrenching months. And 3 years since we had a wonderful, suprizing night at Emmitts. The night you asked me to be your wife..
You got a Eagle Scout Honoree Award last night, it was very nice. Your mom, nanny, Kaley, Beach, Josh, Corman and myself were there for you.
Kaley is walking pretty good now. And is getting her first two teeth. The bottom ones. She is growing up so fast. Her hair is getting curly and still light. She is getting so big and trying to talk up a storm.
I packed up alot today. Very hard to do, I don't want to leave that house, there is so many memories. But the memories is making it hard to stay. I pack and cry, cry and pack.
I miss you so much. Seems that here lately it's more. It's been 4 months and I still fell as if I'm going crazy sometimes. I miss so many things and am so lonely. I am in a empty bed at night, have no one to call and just say I love you and fill complete after hanging up. I want to feel complete again, I want to feel arms wrapped around me, a kiss just because and to be able to just cuddle on the couch. These feeling I want to feel again but know that I can't. Baby please help me, help me understand.
I love you
Prissy
Hey Billy, just thought I would let you know we're thinking about you. Mickey is recuperating well and hopes to go back to work in another week or so. Watch out for my friend, Greg, who joined you guys this week. He also left behind a 24 year old wife whose heart is broken. You all are with us in our hearts and we won't forget....We miss you.
Melody
When God Made Peace Officers
When the Lord was creating peace officers, He was into his sixth day of overtime. An angel appeared and said,"You're doing a lot of fiddling around on this one."
And the Lord said,"Have you ever read the specs on this order? A peace officer has to be able to run five miles through alleys in the dark, scale walls, and enter homes the health inspector wouldn't touch and not wrinkle his uniform. He has to be able to sit in an undercover car all day on a stake out, cover a homicide scene that night, canvass the neighborhood for witnesses and testify in court the next day. He has to be in top physical condition at all times, running on black coffee and half-eaten meals. And has to have six pairs of hands."
The angel shook her head slowly and said,"Six pairs of hands, no way."
"It's not the hands that are causing me all the problems," said the Lord,"it's the three pairs of eyes an officer has to have."
"Thats the standard model?" asked the angel.
The lord nodded. "One pair that sees through a bulge on a pocket before he asks,'May I see what's in there, sir?' (when he already knows and wishes he had taken that accounting job.) Another pair here in the side of his head for his partner's safety. And another pair of eyes here in the front that can look reassuringly at a bleeding victim and say,'you'll be alright ma'am,' when he knows it isn't so."
"Lord," said the angel, touching his sleeve,"rest and work on this tomorrow."
"I can't," responded the Lord,"I already have a model that can talk a 250 pound drunk into a patrol car without incident and feed a family of five on a civil service paycheck."
The angel circled the model of the peace officer very slowly. "Can it think," she inquired.
"You bet," declared the Lord with pride. "It can tell you the elements of a hundred crimes; recite Miranda warnings in its sleep; detain, investigate, search and arrest a gang member in the street in less time than it takes five learned judges to debate the legality of the stop, and still keeps a sense of humor. This officer also has phenomenal personality control. He can deal with crime scenes painted in hell, coax a confession from a child abuser, comfort a murder victim's family and then read in the daily paper how law enforcement isn't sensitive to the rights of criminal suspects."
Finally the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek of the peace officer,"There's a leak," she pronounced. "I told you that you were trying to put too much into this model."
"Thats not a leak," said the Lord,"it's a tear."
"What's the tear for," asked the angel.
"It's for bottled-up emotions, for fallen comrades, for commitment to that funny piece of cloth called the American flag, and for justice."
"You're a genius," proclaimed the angel.
The Lord looked somber. "I didn't put it there," He said.
Anonymous
When God decided on the criteria for a peace officer, He modeled it after Billy.
Officer David K. Day
Lexington PD
Billy, I still don't know what to say. I come home from work every night, kiss Tracy, RoyseAnn and Daniel, and thank God I made it through another shift. Casey and I get to talking about you sometimes as if you were about to walk in the door. He is still taking it hard. I was looking through an old arrest record the other night at work and found your name on one of the sheets as the arresting officer. Lets just say I'm glad no one was around. Daniel turned six months old today. Life goes on, doesn't it? But, you should be here with us, Billy. When I sit and think of how many people were touched by your passing, and how much sadness it brought to so many lives, it makes me mad. But, when I think of you Billy, I think of all the good times we shared, all the golf we played, all the laughs we had, and I realize how lucky I am to have known you. Then I realize why this is so hard, Billy. It's because of who you were, and how much better you made this world.
Officer David K. Day
Lexington PD
Hi,Billy, just felt like saying hello, please say hi to Gram, seems like when you left I think about her more, and when we will all be together again....
Isaiah 30:31
Billy,
I know it's taken me a while to write, but I haven't been able to find the words. We only got to know each other over a short time period, however you never let it feel that way. With you all peace officers were brothers some you got along with some you didn't but all were your brother and no one else messed with them. You taught me that in addition to a ton of other things. The most important of all is to keep your sense of humor. No matter what happened or what may happen you always had that silly grin and a quick remark to go with it. The SO is changing rapidly, lots of the changes you and I talked about some that are beyond expectaiton. Billy I guess in all I just really wanted to tell you that to me you are a brother, and I miss you like one. Rest in peace brother we have the watch.
deputy scott carnes
jessamine county sheriff's department
Billy,
I have been unable to write to you until now. I wanted to share the lyrics to a song that reminds me of you, Prissy & Kaley. I honestly don't know how we'll ever get over losing you, but I thank God daily for allowing us to share your short life.
The following lyrics are from a song by Lonestar.
"...A little voice came on the phone
And said 'Daddy when you coming home?'
He said the first thing that came to his mind
I'm already there
Take a look around
I'm the sunshine in your hair
I'm the shadow on the ground
I'm the whisper in the wind
I'm your imaginary friend
And I know I'm in your prayers
Oh I'm already there
She got back on the phone
Said I really miss you darling
Don't worry about the kids they'll be alright
Wish I was in your arms
Lying right there beside you
But I know that I'll be in your dreams tonight
And I'll gently kiss your lips
Touch you with my fingertips
So turn out the light and close your eyes
I'm already there
Don't make a sound
I'm the beat in your heart
I'm the moonlight shining down
I'm the whisper in the wind
And I'll be there until the end
Can you feel the love that we share
Oh I'm already there
We may be a thousand miles apart
But I'll be with you wherever you are"
I love you and miss you,
Mom
762
Read somewhere that time heals all. I wonder sometimes. Things are still not the same. Never will be normal. I'm not so sure I even want it to be.
I miss talking to you about our girls. It is not the same to talk about your kids to someone who doesn't know what it feels like to be a cop and a daddy.
I talked to your girls the other day they are doing good it seems. I wish I could do more for them. I'm sure if the tables were turned you would do the same for mine.
Rest easy we will handle things down here for you!
Anonymous
Billy,
I have not wrote you yet and I am sorry but it took me a little time for me to figure out what to say because i was still in shock but I have had time to think a little about it and i jus want you to know that i really am blessed to say I know deputy Billy Ray Walls 762. Billy I have spent some time with Kaley and Prissy and I am glad to say that they are my friends I know you are real proud of them and you are shinning down on them no matter what the weather is..Kaley is looking more and more like you every day but she has her moms good looks of corse. Prissy made dinner for Beach and Myself last night and she really misses you but she is one of the strongest women I know.
Billy I am currently trying to get on the S.O. I have Been tranning really hard and working on all the requirements for the POPS test.I have been watching the video tape Prissy give Beach and Myself and i can not help it but you are one of the most professional people i know. the way you handle yourself on your traffic stops,is amazing. If or when i get on i am going to try my best to be as professional as you are in all my dealings with the public.Billy every one still talks about you. I find myself talking about you alot with Chris Know he really misses you he looked up to you and you were one of the reasons that he got into the law enforcement field so i ask a favor of you,it is to give him the strength to work through this. because I look to him for guidence as he looked toward you.i told Prissy that if she needed anything she could call me when ever I promiss you that Chris and myself will do everything in our power to take care of your presous family.
love always
Joshua Fite
Joshua Fite
Billy,
I have spent some time with Prissy and Kaley here lately and Billy, Kaley's starting to look just like you.I am just waiting for her to pick up the Play Station controller and start playing football.Billy she is growing so fast and she looks just like you but she has her moms good looks of course.
Prissy cooked for Beach and Myself last night and she is one good cook.,but then again you know that. Billy I am trying as hard as I can to get on the S.O. I have been trainng hard on all the POPS test so I am ready if they do decide to let me come on board I really need your help on this one to keep me strong through all these physical tests. If and when i get on i want to "try" to be the Officer you were. I keep watching your tape prissy let us borrow of you code fiveing people and you are remarkable on how professional you are. I keep thinking of when I turned 18 you told me I could ride and when i finaly got to ride with you for the first time and it started to snow and we really never got to get into much but I still had a blast. I told Prissy that if her and Kaley need any thing that they can call me any time whether they need someting or if Prissy just wants to talk. Billy once again I want to thank you for giving me the privilage of calling you my friend and my "HERO"!!!
Love always
Josh Fite
JOSH FITE
Billy,
It has been awhile since I have left anything.I was at Marcy's with Prissy and Kaley the other night.I had a great time playing with Kaley.She is just like you.She has your look's and personality.We played for an hour or more and then she fell asleep in my lap.I talked to Prissy.She said something that I assured her was not true.She thinks that people are forgetting about you.She said that some of the people that write to you on this reflection have not written in awhile.I told her(and now you) that you are not forgotten.It is about every day that I think of you.Either something funny or how would Billy do this.I can assure you that everybody else is doing the same thing.Billy,you will never be forgotten.You will always be remembered and Kaley will Know her Daddy.I also try to call or go by every week to check on them.So,don't you worry about them.We are looking out for Prissy and Kaley.Well, I got to go.I just want you to know that you are not forgoten and never will be.I will try to write more often.God bless.
Ofc.James P Primm
Paris Police Department
BILLY,
I WENT TO SEE PRISSY TODAY. SHE MISSES YOU SO MUCH. WE TALKED ABOUT YOU AND SHARED MEMORIES THAT EACH OF US HAD ABOUT YOU. LOOKING AT KALEY IS LIKE LOOKING RIGHT AT YOU. I WISH YOU WERE STILL HERE TO GIVE ME A HARD WAY TO GO. HAHA
WELL SORRY ITS SO SHORT JUST WANTED TO SAY HELLO.
B.W.
I don't understand!! This is not the way all this should be. There is no rhyme or reason for this. Billy please help us the way you helped so many people while you were here on this earth. Ask God to give Prissy comfort and understanding. Ask God to tell her she is not alone. Prissy if you read this YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There are pages of people who love you and care for you.We can't take your pain but I know we will be there when you need to share it or express it. Watch over me for the next 5 I promise I will make you and dad proud.
Friend
Hey Billy, I have had you on my mind all day. I returned to UK Hospital today for the first time since 11/13/01 to sit with a 24 year old friend of mine who is dying of leukemia. Man, was it hard to go back there!!!! The tears just would not stop. He's been a real fighter but his fight is almost over. His name is Greg and I've told him all about you. You'll meet him fairly soon.1
Mickey is recuperating pretty well, he is a lot like you - just wants to get back to work regardless of what the doctors tell him. He misses you, too, and never a day passes that we don't talk about you!
I hope to see Prissy and Kaley soon - that baby just brightens my day! As you well know, she is a living doll.
I'll talk to you again soon.
Melody
Friend
Hey Billy,
Had a bad close call the other day. 90 days to the day. I know you and Chuck had my back. Could of been bad! Thank you!
Read the poem someone left for you, tore my heart out. Kaley is going to be just fine, we will make sure of it. Prissy would make you so proud I can't believe her strength.
Anonymous
Billy we haven`t stop thinking about you. You are with us every minute of every day. Kaley is getting so big. She is just like you very attentive to things around her. She is always looking and learning. Me and Debbie will never let her forget you. Priscilla and Kaley will always be in our heart and prayers. I am just thankful for all the great memories we had together as friends. We will do our best to show Kaley how to play Clue.
Sgt. Keith Stevens
Fayette County Sheriff Office
Billy,
Just a little note to let you know I think about you often. It had been rough the past few months on me, I can only imagine what it has been like for your family. Dave is doing better, it was really rough at first for him and me. He told me he met with Prissy the other day and that she was doing pretty good. He said Kaley is looking more and more like you. I hope to talk to Prissy soon. It is just going to be so hard. This summer we hope to have them over for a cookout like we had planned. I know you are with me on patrol and I appreciate it. It's nice to know you're there with me. I'll talk to you later buddy.
Bo Morgan
Officer
Versailles Police Department
Billy,
It's been three months since that heart-wrenching day, and as you can tell, there is still an emptiness in everyone that you came in contact with. Sometimes I pray and I think you are listening. Or at least hope that you are. I wish that the pain would subside a little for Prissy, I wish it would be a little easier for her, but I would probably feel the same as she does now if I was in her shoes. But, then again, I could never fairly imagine being in her shoes. Please, be there for all the deputies. Because, I think they need you now. And if you're with me and hear my prayers, you know what I mean. Keep that star shining in the sky and take care. We all love you and miss you more than anything.
A Friend
Hey Billy, bet Valentines Day is every day in Heaven, while your body is gone your memory fills our hearts, prayers every day for Prissy and Kaley......Isaiah 40-31
friend
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