Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Thanksgiving just passed us by like it was nothing. Christmas I know will do the same. It's like any more, people start preparing for the holidays that are a couple moths away before they celebrate the one the next day. It seems things are changing in this world like it's nothing. Maybe it's because I'm getting older and realize things more, but even when I talk to people that have been here longer then I have, they tell me how things have changed. But who knows?

Somethings I think to myself how much different things would be if you guys were here? Then I think: Well, they're not here so why think about it and just live how I am and be happy. But to be perfectly honest, it is real hard sometimes. People do whatever they have to do to ease themselves or get it off their minds, but I know how things get to people and sometimes it helps to hide it and sometimes it doesn't. Be with us as I know you will be. Watch over me through BG's process starting in January. That would be a nice place to call home. Love you guys.

November 27, 2004

Missed!...

November 24, 2004

Always remembered...always missed!

November 10, 2004

With all of these officers leaving us lately, I think of you. What a great person you were. It brings tears to my eyes to think about what happened to you. Rest in peace, classmate.

October 12, 2004

Because of you I live, love, and laugh so much better now....

September 30, 2004

Too bad you weren't there to see that pop fly sail over Drew's head!

September 29, 2004

There isn't a day that doesn't come along I don't ask myself, "what the hell?"

September 29, 2004

On the anniversary of your death, I salute you for your service and honor you for your sacrifice.

A hero never dies.....

Rest in peace, hero.

September 29, 2004

Today, the four year anniversary of Bill's death, I will keep him, and his family, in my thoughts and prayers. Andrew, hang in there. Rest in peace, Bill, and continue to watch over your family, who misses you desperately. Peace be with all of you.

Michigan Resident

September 29, 2004

We all just finished up the softball tournament. That was the 5th one. WOW! I can't beleive here in a couple days it will be four years. But then again, time is pretty much nothing anymore. It's kind of funny, playing in that tournament is about like weddings and funerals, you see people you haven't seen in a while. It is nice though to see all those people come out to play. It is always real hard seeing that "8" at short stop though. I played there tonight and made some good plays that I know you liked. (HAA-HAA!!!) Beech Grove is taking three in January, so be with me on that one too. I know in my heart I would really love it there. Once again, I will see you guys when I get there and I miss you. Watch over all of us. I love you guys.
-Andrew-

September 26, 2004

How i miss all of you

September 16, 2004

Always and forever.....missed!

September 9, 2004

Today is that "Paticular Gray", that will come every time this happens some place close to home. And I know everyone around feels the same. There is nothing that can be said or done to take any kind of pain away, any person is feeling that just lost someone close to them. It's funny how God works.

August 23, 2004

I was so moved to read all of the reflections and remembrances of this fine officer, husband, father and brother. He obviously had the heart of a lion and bravery beyond measure. I am so sorry for the loss to your family and your community. Thank you so much for your service.

Annonymous

August 11, 2004

I have that feeling right now that I call "Fall Feeling." It's almost that time of year again, and I get this "Fall Feeling" every time. You and dad where taken away in the Fall and it's gets me every time. I know it's not Fall yet, but I get this feeling so often and go back to that night you were taken. It's the oddest feeling in the world and I don't think even if I tried, I could explain. There are so many things I miss right now. There are so many things I could talk to you and Todd about right now. And I realize you guys are with me, but it's not even close to being the same thing as calling you up. For whatever reason, you guys are gone? But I'm not going to question that. I don't get screwed up in the head over it or anything, I just wish you guys to be here. -Andrew-

August 1, 2004

Brother "Living like I'm dying"
because of you...I miss u Bill and Thx!

July 25, 2004

When sharing things with people that have recently entered your life, it's hard to tell people about your personal life. It's the usual question about if you have any brothers or sisters and the response that gets them a little uneasy. I stop to think about it for a few seconds trying to decide how exactly I am going to tell them that I have two brothers who have died. The majority of the time, I tell them that I have three older brothers but it’s when they ask more questions such as what do they for a living that provokes further explanation. I still have not found an easy way to prepare people for what I am going to tell them. For me, it’s sometimes uncomfortable because I know how the other person is going to respond and I don’t exactly want them to say the usual response of “I’m sorry” or “wow.” So I tell them after preparing myself for their reactions the usual brief story of each brother. Their expressions are usually quite interesting and I don’t want them to feel sorry for me because that’s not the type of person I am. After that point the person gets quiet and remains silent for a few seconds. They then dig a bigger hole for themselves when they ask about parents, because come on, I now have to tell them about my father dying when I was eleven. Their reactions are quite priceless. Try explaining that by the age of 21 that half of your family is dead when most people your age have never experienced death. It’s an experience of its own kind.

Not to worry, the three of them have each other up there like three of us have each down here. It’s an even split and even though it is hard at times, it works itself out nicely.

July 23, 2004

Fields forgot to write "I DON'T GET KNOCKED OUT."

July 22, 2004

Bill,

It's been almost four years since that fateful night. I am finally getting to go to the memorial tommorrow. I will trace your name and relive the happy moments from the academy where you always offered a joke (namely because you had too!). But I will never forget the sacrifice you gave. I know your looking over Dede and making sure she is well. Rest in peace brother.

Patrolman Steve Vallance
Auburn Police Department ILEA class 98-134

July 5, 2004

July 2, 2004 - This is my first time to visit this web site. I can't express how hard it is to get on here, read the other reflections (which are great & supportive), and now I'm attempting to leave something which feels a little strange for me and I can't explain why.

Bill - Not a day goes by that I don't think about you, but today you're more present in my thoughts.

Hey Bill, I MISS:

you calling ATA to get us a flight to Florida

renting wave runners and gettin crazy on them

Dee Dee letting me and you go to the movies to watch something off the wall and laugh when nobody else would laugh

Listening to music in your living room on a stormy saturday afternoon with a bunch of candles lit

Riding in the mustang (really fast)

Listening to that cool rap music, which by the way Merc Dawg will never understand

Just being on the beach

Sitting outside Ft. Myers airport waiting on our flight to get that last bit of sun before we headed home.

Going to the place you found at the INDPLS airport to watch planes land

Our crazy friday and saturday nights

Getting my first tatoo, thanx for taking me!

Politics & religion

Shaving cream on your tan

Your lawn that you always made look like a golf course

The advice you would give and then say "Do what you want, you will anyway"

How much you hated snow

How much you loved Jimmy Buffett!!

Wanting to be a police officer - maybe I will follow in your footsteps?

The deep talks, this list could go on...

You. I miss you, my best friend

I believe in God and I believe everything happens for a reason. It's ironic but the way you died was a perfect ending to your life, and only a few people will understand that. You were a proud Police Officer and I took pride in and was honored to be your friend. You were the big brother I never had. I have your new address and God willing I'll be stoping by in the future. I love ya and miss ya,

Amy Fields

Amy Fields

July 2, 2004

Life is good, matter of fact it is really good. I know everything is up there is great also. Beth graduated college, can anyone believe how old she is now- wow!!!! Jessica and Emily too, man time goes so fast, and it's not slowing down any time soon either. It's like soon as you turn around it's the next month. Then next thing you know, one of you good friends are getting married and starting their lives in a whole different direction.
Whatever makes anyone happy though, I'm behind them 100 percent.
Well 5 out of 50 isn't so bad is it? Too bad it wasn't the first 4, but I'll wait with patience that I've learned over life you HAVE to have. But as soon as the other officer leaves out there in P-Town, I'll be there giving it all I have to offer. Plus as we all know, if it's meant to be- it will be.
It's real funny how you drift from people as everyone gets older. You start hanging out with people you wouldn't think you would of had anything in common with 10 years ago and become the closest with those people. But in all seriousiness, I can only count on one hand how many TRUE friends I have. Too many people are out for themselves. I don't blame people for being that way, but I know who to trust and who just to associate with. Like i said- life is good but at the same time, it's real funny how things pan out. No ones knows what is going to happen tomorrow, next week, or even in an hour from now. We all need to stay close with God and be prepared for whatever He has in store for us. Because WHO KNOWS?
I will be seeing you guys when my time here is up- (obviuosly right!?!?!) Watch over all of us as I know you do.
-Andrew-

June 13, 2004

Always remembering....

June 12, 2004

Always thinking about you...you will never be forgotten. Knowing that you are in a better place takes the pain away.

May 23, 2004

The streets of heaven my be gaurded by Marines But law Enforcement Keep its occupants safe, Rest easy brother. Job well done

Deputy Dillon Corbin
Madison County Sheriffs Office

May 8, 2004

I miss you!....

Anonymous

April 18, 2004