Family, Friends & Fellow Officers Remember...

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 12th anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Your memory will always be honored and revered as time never diminishes respect. I pray for solace for all those who love and miss you for I know both the pain and pride are forever.

To all your family members,, thank you for sharing your devotion with other readers. You are in my heart's embrace today. Jason and Larry have a bond in that both were expectant fathers when they died and both were so excited about seeing their baby boys Cody. Hopefully, Cody Beal and Cody Lasater can meet one day as they honor thier fathers and other law enforcement officers.

Rest In Peace

Phyllis Loya
Mom of fallen California Officer Larry Lasater, Pittsburg PD, eow 4/24/05

January 15, 2012

Missing you today as I read through these reflections.

You would have enjoyed Thanksgiving this year. Some of the family sat looking at old photo albums. OMG, we laughed and laughed!!

One picture that stuck out was a picture of you, Danny & Terri. We believe it was your 6th Grade Graduation. The 3 of you are standing against the side of the house with your arms down to your sides. Danny is dressed in slacks & a white dress shirt, Terri in a floral print dress, then there is you...dressed in slacks, a white dress shirt and...to finish the ensemble SUSPENDERS!! It was great!

Although it was a great time and lots of laugh, some at your expense of course, it left me sad. I miss you, think of you often, and would love to have you here to be another role model for your 16 year old nephews. But you are not so I tell them stories about you and involve them in events I know will remind them who you were.

I love and miss you very much. Your smile gets me through some rough days.

T
Big Sis

December 16, 2011

Our boy just graduated the Indiana State Police Respect for Law camp. You would have been sooooo proud! He stood in formation perfect. Thumbs on his fist like he's supposed to, slight bend in his elbow, shoulders back - gave me a cold chill because it reminded me of how proud you were to be standing in formation for your ISP academy graduation!

He's excited to go back again next year! I know some of the guys he met at the camp knew you. I can't imagine how that was for the to meet your son at camp! He's not supposed to be old enough to go yet! It's so hard to believe that we have lived over 11 years without you. You left us with such a strong sense of love & pride - I hope you know that you are with us every day!

Love Always!
M

Emily Beal-Nelis
Wife

July 9, 2011

Thinking of you today on Father's Day! I know you were looking forward to holding your son. I wish you would have had that opportunity! I have no doubt that you are a proud, bragging Daddy in heaven. We love & miss you!

M

Emily Beal-Nelis
Wife

June 19, 2011

I just finished posting the names of the fallen officers from last week to my FB group and started thinking about you.

This past year has been difficult for me in a number of ways. Your birthday and anniversary were especially hard because I have been having dreams about you that were very surreal. However, I am not sure what to make of any of them. If you are trying to tell me something maybe you should try something a little different.

I love and miss you very much.

T

April 3, 2011

J,

Yesterday our first "baby," J.J. joined you in heaven. You were so excited to train him to duck hunt when he was a puppy. Unfortunately the two of you never had the opportunity to go. I have no doubts that you guys are catching up on lost time & finally getting that hunt in. We will miss him here, but it is comforting to know that he is with you now.

I remember when you first got him. My first puppy (his brother) died by accidentally hanging himself. You told the breeders & they had one puppy left. They offered him to us at no cost & you gave me orders to pick him up that night after work. I did not like getting a new dog! I cried in bed that night missing my puppy. J.J. moved from his spot at the foot of the bed up to my chest until I calmed down. Later, he cried with me when we lost you. I never knew a dog could cry like that. Then 5 months later when I was in labor he was licking my face & trying to make my pain go away. He later became the protector of Cody's baby crib. Our 100 lb baby was so soft & gentle with Cody! He seemed to be happy when he later became Cody's playground! Cody pulled his ears & his tail & J.J. took all of it with that smile of his.

After you died the 3 of us lived with mom & dad. During that time he became Dad's dog. He missed Dad so much that I asked Dad & Mom if they would mind if he lived with them. Dad loved your buddy just as much as you did! Dad called him "yellow dog." Mom called him Dad's shadow!

It's hard losing a close member of the family, but this loss has brought back all the pain of when I lost you! I am glad you are together, but I soooo wish our whole family was together here.

I love & miss you both!

Em
Your Loving Wife

March 22, 2011

Jason,
I really dont know how to word this. It has been 11 years since we made plans for our birthday. We never got to it. I have been down a very dark path in my life without you! You always seemed to balance me out. Funny thing was that I was the older one but you were the mature one. Em has always been great to me but I know I have let her down many times. I feel that I have let everyone down. I miss you! My life is good from the outside looking in but it's torn me up since you been gone. I've tried therapy I've tried meds nothing is ever going to work. There has never been a day that goes by that I don't think of you. I think that's why I have a hard time staying in contact with em; but I love her just as much as I love you. It just hurts really badly. It always hurts. I'm starting to wonder if time really does heal all wounds. But you will be glad to know that J and I are still together. She still puts up with me. We have three kids boy and two girls. Em was nice enough to let us borrow part of your name. You only missed him by 7 months. I know you have watched over me the past several years because I know I've walked out of a lot of houses I never should have made it through. So I thank you. I can still remember you pinning my graduation pin on me. I didn't know who was prouder that day you or me. You were and always be the best friend ant one could have! I love Jason!

BIll
Pals

January 27, 2011

Jason,

I have tried to leave you something on here for a long time but always end up hitting cancel.

I have thought about you quite a bit lately, and I cry every time. I know you would want all of us to be strong and think of all the memories we had with you, and I do. They always end with your damn smile...even the ones where you were agitated with me for doing something that a stupid younger brother does...you were still smiling!

Em brought up another memory the other day when she reminded me that you locked me out of your cabinet - Because that is where your shotgun was...you were sooo mad at me for getting your shotgun out when you weren't their. So you locked it up and took the key. And after you yelled at me and bruised my arm, then threatened to tell Mom & Dad what I had done to the Stop sign you stormed out - When you got into your truck you turned around and I saw you through the kitchen window, you were smiling...ALWAYS smiling...

You are up their watching over all of us (Em and the rest of the family) smiling right now. We know you are!

I know you would be proud of all of us and how we have progressed with our lives.

We sure do miss you, love you always your lil bro David

David
Lil Brother

January 16, 2011

Thinking about you Jason.

Rob McKeeman ISP

January 13, 2011

Jason,

You've been on my mind so much lately! We have lost another officer in Indiana. It is so heartbreaking each & every time that I hear that another family has to endure such heart wrenching loss!

Not long ago someone had said something to the effect that Cody wouldn't do that or act that way if his Dad were still alive. Well, that hit me wrong. I know what type of parent you wanted to be, but I also know that holding Cody could have changed all your perceptions of what kind of parent you would be. This was said in front of Cody. I hope that Cody did not feel like he wasn't the kind of boy you would be proud of. I tried to assure him that Cody is Cody & I wouldn't want him any other way. Yes, our lives would have been different if you were still here, but that doesn't mean that Cody wouldn't be who he is. This wasn't said out of spite, but it was still a hard pill to swallow.

I have no doubts that you are proud of Cody & myself. i strive each day to be the woman that you would be proud to have on your arm.

Please continue to hold me in your heart. I feel your presence when I need you most. I hope that Cody can feel your love when he needs you too!

Some days it feels like a lifetime ago since our final kiss goodbye. Other days, like today, you are so fresh in my memory & the pain of losing you is sharpened again.

I love you. I have since I was 14 and no amount of time or space can take that away. Life has changed it, but it will always exist.

Love always,
M

Anonymous

October 6, 2010

Jason,

I was just leaving a reflection for another fallen brother from Arizona and I had to check on you. I just wanted you to know that I have never forgotten you, or your family. They seem to be doing well. Way to go Em!

J, I took a rubbing of your name from the Peace Officers Memorial in Washington DC recently. It is a constant reminder of your sacrifice. I strive every day to be the best Officer I can. I sure hope I make you proud.

Take it easy brother. Talk to you soon.

Detective Jody McInnis
Mesa Police Department, AZ

August 7, 2010

J,

Happy Anniversary! Today would have been 12 years. I love you dearly & cherish every day we shared.

Love,
M

Anonymous

August 1, 2010

It has been 10 1/2 years since we lost you. My involvement with other survivors has been intermittent for many reasons but over the last 2 years I have gradually become more involved. I continue to encounter others who, because of you, are honored to meet me. I have attended the COPS Siblings Retreat the past 2 years and met a wonderful group of brothers & sisters. You would be proud of me at last years retreat...I shot a rifle!! I did pretty good too! I am unable to attend this year :(
Today, I attended my first COPS Bike Ride Memorial stop. I didn't realize the riders would be reading your ODMP page to the group. Needless to say I was quite emotional. I do ok when I talk to others about your accident but for some reason your story has an entirely different impact when I hear someone tell the story! I also had the honor of meeting the State Troopers escorting the riders. They actually asked to meet me when they learned I was your sister. One Trooper was your counselor at ILEA. She spoke highly of you...er, your smile!! I have come to hear a lot about your smile and personality and look forward to hearing many, many more stories! Everyone I encounter who knew you continues to amaze me with "Jason" stories and I love to hear them.

You should know, I am sure you do, your short time with the Indiana State Police has left a lasting mark...just like you!!

Your nephews will be 15 this year! Can you believe it! Just yesterday you were holding them upside down by their ankles! Dalton reminds me of you. There are certain opportunities where he looks just like you. I have determined you both must carry the same DeBaun genes!! Marquis has your gumption and energy level. Both mention you occasionally, you know teens...minds are elsewhere. I will say you would be glad to know that the physical affliction of "No Butt Beal" and the other one (sorry Jeremy A., your phrase is probably not appropriate for this site) has carried on with "No Butt Barrett"!!

I love you and miss you dearly!

Tracy
Sister

July 26, 2010

J,

There was a memorial service at our local FOP this weekend. So many from our home community came together to create a wonderful memorial park with a beautiful granite memorial with all the Shelby County officers who gave their all. I was so touched by our hometown that words fail me in describing the memorial here. Cody was in tears, which like me he hates for others to see. They are doing so much to help us and to honor you. The granite wall, a chrome shovel that was used for the ground-breaking, a memorial mile on SR 14, a street in town in the new market place will be named after you, and there's a possibility that the road in front of your HS will also honor you (I don't think that one is official yet). How amazing that when Cody goes to play ball there that he will see a sign honoring you?! And what a great message for the high school kids who will attend that school!

I love you, I miss you!

Emily Beal-Nelis
Surviving Spouse

May 3, 2010

J,

We had another first without you this weekend. This was one of those that really hit my off guard & I was soooo wishing you were here! Had to go to the sports store to get Cody some baseball equipment. Ok, I can handle new baseball pants, new batting glove, new bat, but really wish you were there to buy him his first cup! This momma was soooo unprepared!

Love you! Miss you!
M

Anonymous

April 12, 2010

Your heroism and service is honored today, the 10th anniversary of your death. Your memory lives and you continue to inspire. Thank you for your service. My cherished son Larry Lasater was a fellow police officer murdered in the line of duty on April 24, 2005 while serving as a Pittsburg, CA police officer.

Rest In Peace

Phyllis Loya
mother of fallen officer Larry Lasater

January 15, 2010

Thinking of you Jason. I felt your watchful eye over me early this morning while assisting a motorist on I-70. Thanks brother. Rest now.

Deputy Randy Bennett
Henry County Sheriff's Department

January 15, 2010

10 years, holy cow. You aren't forgotten now and I will be thinking about you in 2020. Miss you bro

Rob McKeeman
ISP 56th

January 14, 2010

Two days ago Cody & I helped break ground during a ceremony at the local F.O.P. By next may, there will be a memorial in our home town honoring you & all the local officers who have gave the supreme sacrifice. It is great to know that you will be honored close to home.

More news on the home front - Cody is almost as tall as his Aunt Leah now! I can't believe how tall our boy is! There's a good possibility that he may end up taller than you!

I love you & miss you. I am planning a 10yr memorial tribute for you on your birthday & it's bringing back all the wonderful memories we shared. With those memories come the desire to have you back home with me again. So, instead I ask you to watch over me & put your loving arms around me when I need you most.

Lots of Love,
M

Anonymous

December 21, 2009

As I just finished watching Extreme Home Makeover with built a home for a wife of a fallen brother in TN, I thought of Jason. Jason was not only an honorable Trooper is was an amazing man. He loved his wife and I remember the last time I talked to him, he was so excited about being a father. He always had a smile. I was honored to work with Jason at Shelby Co. and with the Reserves at Shelbyville. I was proud to stand honor guard at his funeral, Jason you have never been forgotten my brother.

Angela Scott
Shelbyville Police Department Reserve

December 6, 2009

Take care of Shaw.

Anonymous

November 20, 2009

Was thinking about my experiences with the Shelbyville Police Department, and I remembered Jason, along with others who are no longer on this plane of existence.

God speed all . . . the world was darkened when you left us.

Dispatcher Tim Hill
Shelbyville Police Department

October 5, 2009

Trooper Beal thank you for your service to the citizens of Indiana and Shelby County. Please guide us while we work to build the Fallen Officer Memorial Garden in your honor. Please help it become a sacred place of peace for your family and the citizens of Shelby County. God Bless you and yours.

Theresa Nolley
President FOP Auxiliary Shelby Lodge#84

October 1, 2009

I just wanted to post that Cody & I (along with several other family members) are planning on celebrating your 35th birthday (the day after the 10 yr anniv since you passed) by having a big celebration. There are lots of great ideas & I hope that we see them happen - for you! You were one of the best gifts I have ever received in my life. I will hold you close to me always!

M

Anonymous

August 16, 2009

I miss you more than words could ever convey.

Love,
M

Anonymous

April 25, 2009